The other day I was watching Real Housewives of Orange County with my sister-in-law who is visiting from Idaho.
I just love when someone shares my love for all things trashy.
Anyway, you know how they cut to the interview part, mid-story line, and say how they really felt in that moment? I love that. I wish real life was like that.
Many times I wish I could be on a reality show for one reason and one reason only: to know what people really thought of me. Oh of course everyone is super nice to you, says sweet things, loves your new hair cut and thinks your outfit is to die for, but come on. I don’t know anyone who is going to tell you to your face that you look like your hairdresser is a blind guy with Tourette’s and you were dressed by a 2-year-old. (Exception being my friend Laura. She’s got no shame. Exactly how I like my friends.)
I have always wanted to hear what people say behind my back so that I know what to fix. Does that sounds weird? I think as I get older I have been on this kick to better myself whereas, when I was younger I was so adamant about “being me”. Hey this is me, love it or leave it. I’m surprised I didn’t need a stick to swat away all the hoards of friends that I had.
Now, I want to be a good person too. I want to be an example to my kids, I want my husband to be proud of me in social situations, I want to not wake up the next day after an event with that “ugh, what the hell did I say last night” feeling. (We all know that feeling.)
I know me though. I have a big mouth. I’m working on it, believe me, I am. I have been a 35 year work in progress and my number one goal has always been to learn to shut my mouth. Admitting you have a problem is step one in the solution, right?
Hi, my name is Nicole and I have a big mouth.
Would you ever want to be on a reality show? What do you think the benefit would be?